| Location | Livingston |
| Age | 22 years |
| Cause of Death | Motorbike Accident |
| Date of Birth | 28/09/1983 |
| Date of Death | 22/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 43,251 since 15/09/2007 |
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Stuart was sadly killed in a road accident on his bike in Fife, on Sept 22- 2006 aged 22. Stuart is extremely missed by all his family and friends.Stuart was one of a kind always had something to laugh about and always there to talk to. Stu was a great lover of motorbikes who owned a Yamaha R1,his bikes were his life, always had been since he was young. If you were his friend then you were a friend for life.He was always game for a party or up for a laugh or prank,always made time for those who needed him,so Stu my friend I know you're watching over all of us and your family xx. I would like to thank all who leave a tribute or condolence x
Show me Heaven was the last song Stuart listened to and was played at his funeral. Here I go again was his favourite song and was also played at his funeral....he was always searching for something better...always restless....he loved life.
Is it better to have loved and lost or to never have loved at all?
Is it better to have loved and lost or would it have been better to have never loved at all? This is a question that goes around in my head. From the first time I gazed at his beautiful, angelic face, his tiny fingers and toes, I knew that I would never experience such happiness or love again. It was such an exciting time, there was so much I couldn’t wait to show him; butterflies, rainbows, the seaside, the moon, the stars. I felt the beauty of the world around me!
I remember gazing at his body on that dreadful day. Lying there so still, so, so cold. He looked like my son but I knew he wasn’t there. He just looked like he was sleeping. I felt so numb. All I wanted to do was get home, away from this nightmare, and for everything to be back to normal. This was just a bad dream. Life went on autopilot; notifying relatives, friends, the funeral to organise, paper work to sort. I felt dead inside. The hurt and pain was all around me. How was I to comfort his brother, his dad, his friends, when I felt such over whelming sadness. We couldn’t comfort each other. To take on the pain of others would surely have thrown us over the edge.
I could feel Stuart around me. I longed to see him, touch him, to hear him, to give him a big hug but I couldn’t see him. I searched for him! I saw him when I was driving, walking along the street, sitting on the settee, in his room…. he was everywhere but I couldn’t reach out to him. I tried to contact him through mediums and prayed that he would hear me, come to me, talk with me, and say that he forgave me. I had a dream; we were all playing in this field, Stuart, Craig, his dad and I…..Stuart was only about nine years old in the dream. I said we had better go home now and Stuart turned to me and looked me in the eye and said†But mum, I can’t go home. I’m dead!†I woke up and knew that he would never come home to me, reality had kicked in! I just wished that I was dead too so that I could be with him but I couldn’t leave Craig or his dad. I felt so torn.
I felt my heart was broken in two when my dad died. I knew it was his time; that he was ready, but I missed him so much. Now I grieve for my beautiful baby, my toddler with the impish smile, the stroppy teenager that gave so much grief as well as pleasure and the young man that was loved and respected by so many. I grieve for the man who never was, for the grandchildren who never will be….for the future which has been taken away. I hear him saying his words, “Trust me mum!!†I hear him promise to look after his brother and pray that he can keep this promise; “Don’t worry mum, I’ll look after him!â€
The worst feeling was being scared. I was so scared for him. I could feel he was around me- he must have been so, so scared. I imagined him so lost. He was always scared of the dark. He was all alone…..God I prayed that my dad or Mary, mother of Jesus, was there to look after him. I prayed so much for someone to look after my baby. I wanted to cuddle him, tell him I would always be here for him, but I felt so useless. Parents are there to protect and love their children. How could I protect him now? How could I make everything better? If he was hurt, if he was sad, if he was upset I could make it better if he was alive. The feeling of hopelessness overwhelmed me.
Everyday I tell him that I love him, and that I will always love and miss him, I say that I am sorry and beg his forgiveness. Mothers are supposed to protect their children from harm, I failed miserably. “If only†are words that bounce around my head. If only we didn’t help him get that bike, if only he hadn’t gone on that bike ride, if only he had gone round that bend a few seconds sooner or a few seconds later then maybe that car wouldn’t have hit him….if only.
I visit his grave everyday. I light candles to give him light so he isn’t scared. I have placed solar lights around the tree where he rests and pray that he is safe and happy in heaven. He was my life, his spirit shone. I miss his laughter, his sense of humour…I just miss him so much. Since he was taken from me there is emptiness inside. I look at the stars, the sun rising and setting and see the beauty in the world but I will never feel that beauty again. Inside there is a hollow, emptiness that my love for Stuart used to fill. I lack emotion; I plaster a smile on my face but feel no joy …I feel nothing.
Is it better to have loved and lost or live this life now? Of course it was. I would never have it any other way. I was lucky to have had Stuart for 22 years. He brought me so much happiness, so much love. I would not trade that in for anything. Although I have his brother, who I love dearly, he is not him.
My darling son Stuart, I am so sorry I failed you. I miss you and love you always.
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Tributes For Week Commencing 30th January 2012
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FOR MONDAY
Our thoughts are ever with you
Though you have passed away.
And those who loved you dearly
Are thinking of you today.
♥
FOR TUESDAY
Everyday in some small way
Memories of you come our way.
Though absent, you are always near
Still missed, loved and always dear.
♥
FOR WEDNESDAY
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye,
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God can tell us why.
♥
FOR THURSDAY
We can't have old days back
When we were all together.
But secret tears and loving thoughts
Will be with us forever.
♥
FOR FRIDAY
Love Lives On
Those we love
Are never really lost to us –
We feel them
In so many special ways-
Through friends
They always cared about
And dreams they left behind,
In beauty that they added to our days...
In words of wisdom we still carry with us
And memories that never will be gone...
Those we love are never really lost to us -
For everywhere their special love lives on.
♥
FOR SATURDAY
If Roses Grow in Heaven
If roses grow in Heaven Lord
Please pick a bunch for me.
Place them in my loved ones arms
and tell them they're from me.
Tell them I love and miss them,
And when they turns to smile,
Place a kiss upon their cheeks
And hold them for a while.
Because remembering them is easy,
I do it everyday,
But there is an ache within my heart
That will never go away.
♥
FOR SUNDAY
Still With Us
Do not stand by my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am a diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft star shine at night.
Do not stand by my grave and cry.
I am not there...I DID NOT DIE.
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If I could have a lifetime wish,
A dream that would come true,
I'd pray to God with all my heart for
Yesterday and You.
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A thousand words can't bring you back;
I know because I've tried.
And neither can a million tears;
I know because I've cried.
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You left behind my broke heart
and happy memories too.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
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The tender touch of angel wings,
Brush softly past your face;
Summoned by soft spoken prayers,
To stand here in this place.
Called to keep and guard you,
To touch your heart with love;
Sent as special messengers,
From a holy place above.
Sent to whisper words of peace,
To calm a restless soul;
Sent to watch you as you sleep,
Their angel wings unfold.
They cover you with tenderness,
They watch your slumbering face;
They call you into peaceful rest,
As they stand here in this place.
They walk beside you every step,
As you go about your day;
Their mission is to guard you,
As you travel on your way.
So if you feel a tender touch,
A breeze upon your face;
Just know I prayed for angels,
To keep you in this place.
~ Allison Chambers Coxsey 1994
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You think I've gone far away and life has lost its will,
But look around, I am right here, living with you still,
I watch your tears, I feel your pain, I see the things you do,
I weep as well, each time you cry, my soul it lives with you.
It gives me such joy to hear you laugh, and do the things you do,
And when you smile over bygone days, I smile right there with you,
For we are still one, just you and me, one mind, one soul, one being,
Walking forward into life, though you are only seen,
And in the stillness of the night, when the pain really starts,
Stretch out a little with your mind, and draw me to your heart,
I am always close by your side, you have nothing at all to fear
And my love will always surround you until you join me here.....
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I can see you my Angel
Through these eyes of mine
You are watching me from heaven
Oh how wonderful you shine
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Clouds are floating past me
But I can still see you
To be with you in heaven
Would be a dream come true
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I will patiently wait Angel
Many years may come and go
You will always be shining for me
With your heavenly glow
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When my time on earth is through
And my eyes can no longer see you
God will open his arms and welcome me
To be in heaven with you for Eternity
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Written by Brenda Derrick 13~8~2011
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If there are fireflies,
There must be fairies,
And if there are fairies,
There must be a forever.
John Bliven Morin 2011
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Way over yonder
That's where I'm bound
I know when I get there
The first thing I'll see
Is the sun shining golden
Shining right down on me
Then trouble's gonna lose me
Worry leave me behind
And I'll stand up proudly
In true peace of mind
Carole King
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Sweet Dreams Precious Angel xxxx
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HEAVENLY CUDDLES
All my love I send to you,
Past the skies of lovely blue,
Past the clouds of fluffy white,
I send my love and say goodnight.
So tuck your wings and close your eyes,
And listen to Heaven's Lullabies.
And you will sleep in heavenly rest,
Cuddled by our Lord, Himself!
(c)2011vickihansen.wordpress.com/
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LIFE IS NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU
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The sun still rises in the east
and darkness falls at night
but nothing now seems quite the same;
each day is not as bright.
The birds still sing, the flowers grow,
the breeze still whispers too
but it will never ever be
the same world without you.
It’s so sad that you had to go;
your leaving caused such pain
but you are so very special,
and Earth’s loss is Heaven’s gain.
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